AFTER A LONG LONG TIME

i've graduated hahaha its been a while since i open this blog again
now im 23 yo, work as accounting in a project, i was work at yakult before but resign because i dont like the environment.
i like my workplace rn, but i dont get an enough money if i keep work here, i need to find another job asap, since i already work there for a year next month

ahh now im a melody lol. its been 3 years and im still loyal to them, im kinda regret why i ignore them before lol now im a hard stan i cant even love another group anymore haha
their song gave me strength. my bias is changsub but i love them all, and my ship is yooksub/changjae lol

i think i'll stan them even when i get married later hahahaha


and i got a best friend rn, we're quite similar type haha we eat a lot too.

i'll write something again next time, if i want haha byee

My 21th Birthday

today is 5th January 2016 and i wanna write this post again like last year hehe..
i wanna say that :

1. i have graduated from college last year
2. i wish i can get a job as soon as posible
3. this year is kinda lonely tho, many people forgot abt me haha
4. kinda sad
5. i hope i can smile everyday
6. btw, i'm a melody and monbebe now! hahahaha i know i'm so random right? but minhyuk and changsub got me crazy
7. last year was great! i have a trip to east java for twice, i got 2nd place inn a dance competition too xD
8. but i cried much too
9. i wish this year will be great as well
10. i wanna buy btob and monsta x albums and merchandise
11. should i get a boyfriend this year? lol
12. i'm kinda bored
13. anyway i got a monbebe friend from bandung haha
14. i should gain much money this year
15. i feel i'm useless
16. wanna go to at least 1 concert or fanmeet this year
17. my life is up and down lmao
18. i wanna be happy
19. i wanna have more friends, but i mean a real friend
20. i wanna be pretty lol
21. i'll do my best 

the end! hahahahaha

shinhwa "we"

cr. on pics

My 20th Birthday

today is 5th jan 2015, my birthday.. and i wanna write that...

1. i must be graduated from the college this year
2. i have a malaysia friend, i called her grandpa and she called me grandma, we really love each other, she's the first person who congratulate me
3. i love beast, ze:a, shinhwa, and even i doubt it super junior.
4. yesung, my ultimate bias still in military service
5. my ben. congratulate me this morning with her weird speech lol
6. my dc member and my highschool friend congratz me too in funny way absolutely lol
7. some of my friends forget my birthday, and i was expected it
8. i was bickering with my father yesterday but he give me money today
9. this is the first time i go to college on my birthday
10. i wish i will win the dance competitions
11. i hate some l**turers, they're sucks
12. i have a same birthday as yoseob, i love him btw lol
13. i wish i got a boyfriend lol
14. i'll find a job this year
15. i'll be better
16. i wanna gain much friends too, if i can hehehe
17. i have to get a good result in IP and IPK
18. its rainy season
19. i wanna see some concerts lol
20. i hope everyone love me :)

random talk

jung heechul...

i dont know what i should write here since im not good in writing lol
the first time i saw ze:a on tv i dont even care abt him, i just know and like ze:a because of kwanghee, but there's a moment when i watched the beatles code (they're in phoenix era) and i found him attractive, but i didnt know that i would fall for him this far lol
his lips is my best friend's ideal type. so at first, i just wanna introduce and keep told my friend to just biasing him instead of her bias at that time (since i dont really like his bias and i wont mention her bias here), then i started to search more abt him, and as you can see now, im the one who captivated by him like this -_- btw, do you wanna know why i love jung heechul? here some of the reasons:

1.  his voice, smile, and laugh, i think he has a unique voice, idk why i'm feel happy when i hear  his voice and his laugh, his smile make me smile too xD
2. his rap, i admits that he's not that good in rap, but come on, he doesn't bad either, he should got more part, im sick abt cant hear his voice in ze:a's song more *forgive my selfishness lol
3. his craziness! lol who can beat heechul in this? xD
4. his crossdressing xD ah but he rarely do it now, can i see heechul crossdressing again? like when he being amuro namie? *got slapped 
5. if you watch idol league, you can see that heechul always convince his member to show up, esp. in episode 8, if you watched it clearly, you can saw heechul asked kevin to sing, promote hyungsik that hyungsik is their main vocal, and there're more.. 
6. in bts of oops, at the interview, heechul put his hand on junyoung's lap throughout the interview, i didnt realized at first lol, isnt he cute? xD
7. people called him grumpy and arrogant, but the fact is he's not, he's awkward and shy rapper who always try his best in everything, thats my opinion.
8. on their predebut variety show, i saw different heechul, if you know what i mean... and it made me cry ;; ;;
9. i have many reasons that i cant even explain here let's end here lol i said before, i dont like writing too much. right? -____-

i wanna see heechul in drama, not short drama like doll's house, but a real drama, like siwan did, because it's heechul's dream, i wanna see heechul achieve his dream, and more variety show! in always cantare heechul only appear for some minutes (?) can he got a right variety show? ;; ;;

yaa jung heechul, you have to be more popular next year ok? i'm always support you.. fighting 9^0^)9

ps: he's pretty, isnt he? lol

ZE:A

ceritanya lagi suka banget sama boyband yg satu ini, esp....

jung heechul.. my life is full of all about heecheol TT.TT his eyes, his smile, his laugh, and his everything lol

and my fav couple

heesik/hyungchul lol

cr. on pic

Beast-Sad Movie

This is the end for us,

even though it was intimate

But I guess

we can’t avoid breakups as well

It’s supposed to be like this,

don’t have any regrets

Just think that

you were watching a sad movie

Oh I’m tired, even the words

that you’re having a hard time are annoying

The fights we had everyday

seem so habitual now, it’s a shame

Tears over smiles,

sadness over happiness

There were more times I coldly turned my back on you,

rather than hugging you

We drifted away,

then we shattered and messed up

I can’t find the warmth

that I felt in the beginning

The times we spent together,

the promise we swore by

Now in front of us,

none of that matters

This is the end for us,

even though it was intimate

But I guess

we can’t avoid breakups as well

It’s supposed to be like this,

don’t have any regrets

Just think that

you were watching a sad movie

How I changed from only loving you

To me choosing breakup

finally despite only having you on my mind

Like how we loved

with the same mindset

Now this situation at hand

has been our mistake

We drifted away,

then we shattered and messed up

I can’t find the warmth

that I felt in the beginning

Before it’s too late,

before it becomes a scar to both of us

I can’t look at you

like the past any more

This is the end for us,

even though it was intimate

But I guess

we can’t avoid breakups as well

It’s supposed to be like this,

don’t have any regrets

Just think that

you were watching a sad movie

It’s time to say good bye

It’s time to say good bye

Sadness isn’t for long

It’s only for a while Baby

You are so beautiful

that you will be loved anywhere

Just think that

you were watching a sad movie

This is the end for us,

even though it was intimate

But I guess

we can’t avoid breakups as well

It’s supposed to be like this,

don’t have any regrets

Just think that

you were watching a sad movie